A forest stands powerless before a fire. The fire rages, swiftly consuming all that stands in its path. It is out of control. What was once a forest is now burnt and barren. Nothing but ashes. Nothing untouched. Then, unbelievably, the ashes left behind enrich the soil. They become a bed for new growth. And after a time new life does appear. Miraculous, that something so destroyed can become beautiful again.
My life was destroyed by addiction. I was the fire. My choices had consumed everything in their wake. I was out of control. It seemed as if the only thing left was ash. But my Higher Power took those very ashes and began his work. I admitted utter powerlessness and through that admission God began to restore me. It is a process. It takes time for that new growth to appear. But as surely as a forest can be rebuilt after a fire, my life can be rebuilt as well. Unbelievably, my very weakness, my addiction, becomes the vehicle by which God draws me to himself. Unbelievably, I am relieved of my bondage. God uses my past and my difficulties to bring others into recovery. I bear witness to God’s power and his love. I have a new way of life.
2 comments:
What a wonderful analogy. My great grandsponsor says we work with others and it brings us back into functional relationships with people outside the program. God knows I dragged my closest relationships through the wreckage of my addiction and the wake of pain I experience as I find and face my resulting remorse challenges my hope for future healthy, happy relationships. Teaching and reteaching the steps is incresing my devotion to them as the vehicle for the metamorphis from ashes to new life.
I watched my father die having never faced this pain that seems to grow the more selfless I become, and I am extremely grateful God saw fit to grace me with recovery.
Thanks for the meditation (and the accompanying healing tears), Nancy.
Beth
WOW! This is very powerful. Praise God his mercies are renewed every morning.
Thank you for reminding me that when all seems lost and hopeless, that God is in control and in His grace and mercy, can rebuild my life.
Thank you for this wonderful message.
N.S.
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